The sun

I am currently working through a book on the Qabalah and Tarot. I colour a picture of the Tarot card and meditate on the card and the path associated with it.

My relationship with the process is an interesting one. I will suddenly have the urge to complete the next path. I will read what the path lead to and it will be exactly what I wish for most.

The card I finished colouring yesterday is called the sun and the path associated with it is called Resh – the collective intelligence.

It is a path of regeneration, creativity and forming a deep connection with inner teachers. It leads back to the source we originate from and a feeling of child like wonder.

Does that not sound super amazing?

For the last couple of days I have been filled with vitality and light. A soft radiating vitality.

Yesterday I realised that a part of me fears this feeling. I don’t understand it, I don’t want to loose it. The final reward might lead to disillusionment and end of what I have been working towards.

But it is not the end. It is the beginning. I want to sustain this feeling. I want to build on it. I want to become something more.

A sunflower turns its face towards the sun. A tree allows its heart to explode into molten gold.

I laugh at the beauty of it.