how strange

winter has turned around

to remind me

how warm summer have been

life flowers on

love without reason or rhyme

in a world out of time

every time i recall 

love or truth

you are here

in my heart 

where each day fills with joy

and each moment holds truth

that soon all will cease to be

out of time

when we dance free

of our bonds

free of time.

live within reason and rhyme

where each day brings the song

of the heart  

to the world

where the dance becomes new

where the truth is reborn

where the joy is so sweet.

one of the gifts of my initiation has been the ability to sing. as a young girl i was kicked out of the choir for being out of tune. although i love to sing flo often teases me when my voice squeaks and wobbles and breaks. but when the ancestors pulls closer i lift my voice in song. the notes are sweet. the words flows from inside me and outside me.

i have moved from a frenzy of hunting for the right teacher, the right way, into a gentle acceptance. knowing that all will unfold in its own time. each breath  is precious as it offers me a chance to transmute and transform each moment of existence. together with all that surrounds me. inside and out.

there is still plenty fear and anger. worry about money. waking up in the morning with a hollow feeling circling my navel. searching for something. but life has shifted. just a little bit. to the left? to the right? maybe up? maybe down? maybe it simply turned inside out. 

i have opened my heart to love. to dreams. to guidance. to hope.

what a strange mystery we are woven into.

i love you mithril. i miss you.