This morning I found a reminder to keep trying
because new things need practice before they become part of one.
I remembered why I started studying at 36,
how much I am learning,
that essays and exams will get easier with practice
and that I'm working towards a future
where nature is invited to the dance.
(actually since she is happily dancing on her own maybe,
if we smile with her, she will invite us to join her)
Remembering is good because sometimes I feel
like just giving up and moving to Auroville.
how much I am learning,
that essays and exams will get easier with practice
and that I'm working towards a future
where nature is invited to the dance.
(actually since she is happily dancing on her own maybe,
if we smile with her, she will invite us to join her)
Remembering is good because sometimes I feel
like just giving up and moving to Auroville.
This wanting to give up because of a lack of perfection,
has followed me like a shadow all my life.
Luckily, the ability to recognize a message,
when it comes shining through the clouds,
tripples right alongside my shadow.
has followed me like a shadow all my life.
Luckily, the ability to recognize a message,
when it comes shining through the clouds,
tripples right alongside my shadow.
So with a lighter heart I will continue studying
for my geography exam because if allowed,
Geomorphology will teach me how erosion shapes a landscape,
Rural Livelihoods will share the resourcefulness of the vulnerable
and Sustainable Cities will fill me with hope.
for my geography exam because if allowed,
Geomorphology will teach me how erosion shapes a landscape,
Rural Livelihoods will share the resourcefulness of the vulnerable
and Sustainable Cities will fill me with hope.
Its my last exam before three glorious weeks of
getting to rearrange furniture,
take photos, blog and cook new meals,
plant out winter vegetable seedlings,
making mandalas from natural materials
read a stack of books -
Jung on alchemy and Mandalas,
Children's Participation in Environmental Projects,
Nature's Psychology,
A Victorian suspense novel -,
start a research project on an inner city foodgarden,
and find a part time job, preferably in a nursery (for plants).
getting to rearrange furniture,
take photos, blog and cook new meals,
plant out winter vegetable seedlings,
making mandalas from natural materials
read a stack of books -
Jung on alchemy and Mandalas,
Children's Participation in Environmental Projects,
Nature's Psychology,
A Victorian suspense novel -,
start a research project on an inner city foodgarden,
and find a part time job, preferably in a nursery (for plants).
And so I continue mapping my future.
23 comments:
school can seem hard because it is dry and removed and artificially segmented in a way that life is not.
you have earned your break. the rest will allow your brain to take hold of all you have learned and make ready for more.
De makes some really good points. Still, you are a natural for this education, for the newness of the ideas and your own unique "take" on the topics.
Thanks for your comment at my site. You are one of the few who "gets" me, I think. :)
eeek, your plans for break sound fantastic and so rejuvenating.
PS Your subjects in school are so important. So proud that you are doing stuff like that, lovely Hel.
PPS 36 is the new 26
"Wanting to give up because of a lack of perfection,
has followed me like a shadow all my life."
Me too, girl, me too. Its the hardest thing, to have to stick with something, isn't it?
As always, I travel to your world when I look at these wonderful pictures. Hope your break is a restful one!
I envy you your break. You have no idea.
And I remember a place sounding similar to what you've described: so many anxieties and life lessons accompanying the task of edumacation. (smile)
Everything in its time.
*sigh*
Oh, may you enjoy and cherish every moment of your pending respite.
_______
I think school, for artistic people, seems like a burden- they want to just get out and get on with things, because they know that life is too short. I think you are one of those. You want to explore everything and keep asking questions, and sticking with one thing is so hard for people like that, who are practically bursting with the joys of life. So much to do. I wish you well.
and especially of mapping your life. Maybe someday to include visiting a place with lavender cacti?
Your words and photos inspire. Evoke. Encourage. Thanks.
Also thanks for your comments on my blog.
FA
Thank you for the reminder that new things are hard before they become easier. I tend to forget that and only go with what comes easily to me.
I remember when I started studying and I thought I'd never get inside this language and customs. And then, a couple of years later, it all seemed quite natural to me. Academic-speak. I just found a page from my dissertation and marveled at the things I had written there, and the way I wrote them. Weird.
You have such a great eye for details and lighting. I always love your photos. Hang in there. I went to massage school at 44. It was harder than you might think. There is a tremendous amount of anatomy and physiology to learn along with how different parts of the body function. I got through it and you will, too. I keep thinking about going for a masters in somatic psychotherapy or Oriental medicine but at 54, the financial cost stops me cole. I son't want to be repaying student loans until I'm 70.
wow hele, you're so brave!
the break is well earned. i hope it will be rejuvinating and inspiring
your future shines so bright.
sister love, i miss you but am so happy to hear how you are filling your brain.
Life map. Sounds good to me. Enjoy your break.
you, magic miracle, seem so full of essence. i am always calmed to read you and see your photos.
as usual I am going to comment sort of off topic because i was caught my your reference to mandalas and natural materials, and last week, when looking at your site with Songbird, when we wrote you that letter? I pointed out your made from natural materials mandala to her.
I gotta show you some of my work.
anyhow. the future is unmapped i think, we just jog forth and find our way. I know you will.
You're going to fit that all in three weeks? This is your school break right?
Go for it girl. Why not? And your course sounds interesting.
I hit publish by accident. I wanted to add that I love your writing as always.
"where nature is invited to dance..."
It made me smile.
Thanks for posting about this. I am heading back to grad school in the fall and it's nice to hear about how you're doing.
Enjoy that break!! Well-earned.
Fabulous list of things to look forward to.
ohhhh YAY 3 weeks of delish living-- you SO deserve this!!! Hope it is all that you want it to be.
Bisous, bluepoppy
"This wanting to give up because of a lack of perfection has followed me like a shadow all my life . . . I continue mapping my future".
Ahhh, yes. This I understand. But listen closely to Beryl Markham: "A blueprint clung to the wall. A spider, descending from the ceiling, stopped to gaze at the precise lines & angles, then returned to his geometrically perfect web, unimpressed." From "West with the Night". A very smart spider. We are only human, and HE knows it, even if we do not.
Thanks so much for stopping by my blog & leaving a sigh. That little sigh led me here & recalled this quote from Markham to mind. I think I'm going to post it at my place for a while. As a reminder.
I'll be back.
:) Debi
It amazes how the future is always so amorphous. Life has changed me in so many ways, and it continues...it's hard to know where to go next.
One thing I have learned...the busier you are, the more you get done.
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