in this moment,after my body has let go of the pain
my mind still reaches for the painkillers.
no not my mind.actually.
my wonderfully logical pragmatic mind made peace
with loosing our seven and a half week fetus
once its hopes were reduced to a red blob in a silver dish.
it remembered its project plans and thought
its better this way.
it is my heart. and the inside of my body.
that feel hollow. without hope .
left standing.
in the space where possibility still blooms.
not knowing what to think.
i want to go back to sleep.
fuck, fuck, fuck!
17 comments:
i'm so very sorry, hele. (((hugs)))
Peace to you.
~*
Sleep and sweet dreams. I am so sorry, sweet Hele.
xoxo
Debi
Oh honey. Hold on.
my sweetest soul sister, I am so sorry. I love you.
I'm so sorry for your loss. :(
So sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I had two miscarriages before I had my beautiful son. They are devastating physically and emotionally. Wishing you peace and healing.
i'm so so sorry.
oh my hel, my heart breaks for your loss. i have been in the same situation and the pain of loss is terrible. it hurts me to know you are suffering this.
xo
c--h
Pointed this way by flutter.
I don't know you but my heart breaks for you.
Wishing you peace and healing. (Kat already said it, but you can't have enough.)
" I leave you little one today...
for things that I must do and say....
for never will you lead the way...
nor follow patiently behind....
I'll draw your shining light quite close...
and wonder why what no one knows...
left only but this tear-filled prose...
and bless you in your task.....
with but one thing more I offer you...
a special place of things I do...
where nothing can confine love's due...
in memory hold you dear...
I'm so sorry sweetie.
thank you everyone* your words enfold my heart like an embrace - leaving it feeling warmer and safer.
My heart tears for the empty place in yours.
Oh no. I can't add anything to what's already been said, so I'll just say it again. I am so dreadfully sorry. I'm thinking of you. {{{Hugs}}}
I am so sorry hele...so deeply saddened to stop by and read about your pain, your loss...gentle steps.
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