I spent most of the night before my exam tossing and turning, worrying about our field, our city, our country and our world.
Earlier we took our dogs for a walk through the field. Most of the field was gone. Covered with construction buildings and machinery. The beautiful grasses gone, the soil, which has never been turned, ripped open. The city is covering every little bit of earth with concrete. It breaks my heart.
I want out. I want to move somewhere where there are no cars and no people and no building or plastics.
Where there is respect for nature. For her many rituals and faces. Where people do not believe that she has been sold into slavery and is under their dominion.
Where the same tree stretches towards the sky for a hundred years. Every year her leaves gets closer to touching the stars.
I am sad tonight.
I am starting a new yoga class tonight.
I am done with exams for a month and a week.
ps. Today is better. Today I will open my heart and listen for an answer. Tomorrow I will answer this wonderful question by Kirsten.
You've stumbled across a genie in the lamp and lo and behold, you now have 3 wishes. You can't ask for material wealth or cause any harm (not that you would). What would your 3 wishes be?
I feel happier just thinking about it.
pss. Thank you all for the exam good wishes. Depite my sleepness nights they gave my thoughts wings.
7 comments:
"Where people do not believe that she has been sold into slavery and is under her dominion." Oh I want to join you there.
Enjoy your yoga class.
Hel, I know.
I just know.
And I love that last photo. It reminds me of a line drawing of the profile of a laugh. Of joy.
I hope your heart continues to lighten.
Let me know if you find a place like that-Peanut and I will be on our way.
:O)
move to Belize with us. Florian can have an acre to build all the cob and rammed and hay that he wants. we can be neighbors side by side.
and we can brew beer and count the stars.
there are less than 250,000 people in the whole country, and our land is in the jungle. it would be as you write.
i am earnest, sister, in this comment.
I am glad the exams are done. A sleepless night is a sure way to put the brain into a fever pitch.
I TOTALLY hear you about wanting to get away from it all. The dogs would love it.
Oh, and what Notsosage said about the last photo, not what I saw (the laugh), but it was my favourite as well. Simple complicated.....
The tea is brewing, love.
There are stars here, do you see them? Where there is no more earth, there are always stars, it's mother nature's way of reminded us, than our concrete is temporary and she, is forever.
You can lean until your heart is light. You've lessened my load lately.
I so understand. We bought a piece of land that we couldn't afford b/c we knew that we could not control what others did. But we could try to create a haven for ourselves. I rush out to the city but then rush right back. The songbirds they still sing there.
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