I back with a head and heart full of new discoveries.
However, at present my life seems to be a never ending cycle of rushing to the next appointment.
I still miss Mithril. My heart is slowly surrendering to the unknown. A part of me fiercely resents this.
In Capetown I learned that people do not have to instantly like me. Admitting that I needed my facilitator to like me was far more traumatic than sharing deep and interesting feelings. Her feedback, that friendship grows over time, often with people we do not immediately feel drawn to, shifted something in my world.
The last three evenings was spent with a healer who trained in India. Inside something feels more solid. At the same time my heart feels light and floaty. He mentioned that although I not often aware of it, because I am so caught up in my mind, my intuition is very strong. Letting go of control I can allow this intuition to find its voice.
Looking through my journal I found this piece of writing.
The secret life of the heart exists outside of the mind. Its singing cannot be contained in the short enclosing sounds and structures of a language influenced by culture and conditioning. However, its song can soften the edges of language, sweeping it along, twirling it around and making it catch its breath for just a moment.
I wish I had the time to allow my words to ebb and flow with the beating of my heart.
I will visit as soon as I find another opening in time to slip through.
13 comments:
Beautiful words, you ARE quite intuitive, not to mention spiritually poetic!
I'm with you, in the grieving these days. I even poke the wound by looking at pictures of my dear departed Squeak ("My name is Mary Agnes"). Time heals all wounds, but like you, I wish it wouldn't try to rush it so.
Glad you're back.
Lovely words
and stunning photographs, especially the ones of the ocean
xx
Wow, this was just what I needed to read this afternoon in the newly-arrived blizzard I didn't think would occur.
As far as being liked/not....Many of my closest friends began as people I didn't even like.
And that last photo....? wonderful!!!
who couldn't like you?
A few thoughts:
Dogs have the cutest butts.
No, people do NOT have to instantly like you!
I hate having to rush through anything.
Also:
Love the photo of the wave just turning itself upside down. That is gorgeous.
indeed, all of the friendships I have that have lasted were ones where I and the other person did not initially connect with.
I want to be liked as well and I'm not sure how to not do that, want to be liked that is. Glad you had a good time. Lovely photos.
like your words..and photos are beautiful again..especially love ones of the ocean..and the last is really funny :)
have a nice weekend!
Oh, that wanting to be liked is so hard to get over. We are social animals, and once upon a time, our actual physical survival depended on our tribe, our circle of people. So we are biologically programmed, don't you think, to want this liking? And though we no longer need our "tribe" physically, we do need/desire them for other reasons. And so we struggle - it is not a bad struggle, but a difficult one - and in the end, I think, we find our true tribe, the people we were meant to share our fire with all along.
:) Debi
Nice shoot... lovely pic
"I wish I had the time to allow my words to ebb and flow with the beating of my heart."
Dear soul, do take the time to let the words flow...this particular time will not come again.
Hi.
Thanks for this post.
I LOVE the wave picture... with it just about to crest!
And laughed at that last picture. :-)
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